thnks fr th mmrs ..

soo i was going to rant about what i feel but i guess enough of the negativity.. i guess let's just focus on the great things that happened.. let's just say it was good while it lasted soo without further ado .. lets do this.. haha

-i liked you ever since grade 8 and would feel happy even when you would kick me.. i know you're not supposed to be happy but hey.. it was you soo its all good haha

-first time finding your AA .. it was er_anne or er-anne .. hahah and would listen to your songs (e.g. All My Life by K-Ci & JoJo etc... which made me like that song too)

-making my first AA page (7seven) and you changing yours to (1mpeccable) which you would say "7seven-1mpeccable 03.22.04" or "forever" hahaha and put it on your letters and my agenda..

-our random msn convos that i would save .. ( i know you still have em.. ive had 3 computers already soo its pretty much a memory but i know you have em in your inbox sumwhere :D) and i would save 'em for no reason ... iuno just because.. LOL..

-i remember when you used to take the bus in the early morning and everyone else would be there but we would "kind of" talk and then carla would come and you guys would talk and i'll just be standing there.

- i remember when you first noticed my spiked hair and nice clothing style ;) .. even carla was there to agree with you.

- i remember when you told me that you love my scent (which was drakar noir) which made me bring it in my bag so that i can spray it occasionally to attract you ;)

- i remember the time when you would take something from me and keep it for the whole day (e.g. my Swatch watch, my cologne bottle, etc.)

- i remember when you would take my agenda and i would find scribbles throughout the whole agenda the next day (e.g. words and phrases like "i WUFF you", kiwi, circling your b-day and mine, random hearts (AA hearts LOL) and pretty much underlines and circles all over.. with different coloured pen :D)

-i remember when you will be with me, sergio and monique each and everyday lunchtime.. but i never got sick of you.

-i remember when you would watch my ball games and you will wait for me to finish and we would go home together since we lived in the same building.

-you didn't know this but after every ball practice, i would open your locker and look at your picture the one you took from elementary and look for clues in your binder, etc. about who you like.. CLEARLY IT WAS ME!!. but i didn't know it was me .. then i wouldn't find anything soo i would let go a deep sigh and lock it. (fact: the same lock im using now, i dont think i will ever forget that combination)

-i still do that until now except you dont have books nor binders LOOOLL .. but i still stare at it because it's the thought that counts.. and reminds me of you.

-i remember when i would bring my sister's old phone and we will listen to it's FM radio.. (Flow 93.5 BABY!!) and we would share it's headphone .. (it was when we didn't have money for iPods or even an mp3)

-i remember when people would ask.. soo who's kiwi and you would use victor .. (in my mind, i would be like "sure.. i know it's me bitch!! .. muahahaha!!) ohh the irony..

-i remember when you said you like puffy jackets.. soo i bought a puffy jacket.. (peer no wait scratch that .. crush pressure)

-i remember the most memorable hug i gave you was when i asked you, "are you cold?" since it was raining and it was in 5 and 10 when we just got off from bus 1.. i was soo smooth.. STEP YOUR GAME UP SOOOON!!

-i remember when we first went to the mall.. you leaned on me on the bus home and i knew right there and then that i was going to commit to taking care of you for a long time .. trust me, it felt good and everyone was just a blur on that bus except you and me..

-ben ramos told me you liked me .. like stating the obvious.. but it felt good hearing it from other people.

-you basically asked me out.. yup i know your little scheme .. you made it up this friend and she was saying something about this MJ guy who was a made up person as well and she actually "talked" to me on msn and asked me .. "how much do you really like her? scale of 1- 10", i said "11".. she said"soo if you really like her... why don't you ask her out cuz she might come back to this MJ guy." .. i said, "ok fine call her.." and then arianne was like "hey you have something to tell me?".. i said, "do you want to go out?".. you said .. "i'll think about it" and it was a sunday soo you said you will tell me the next day. soo thank you for doing that .. i was a pussy/stupid.

- at school, sergio basically said yes for you since he was basically yelling it out... "she said yes darrel".. and i was there thinking .. "did she really need to think about it??" .. HAHAHA .. MARCH 22, 2004 BABBBBBY!!! ..

-geography class was bombed.. nitsis would look at us cause i would always sit beside you and we would not pay attention and the trip was bombed too.. (whitney getting mad because you ditched them for me, gasper, mark and wilfrid)

-our first kiss was a smack on the cheek.. i didnt know how to kiss back then but now im an expert ;).. hahaha.. well after that .. our first kiss i guess was when you would kiss me on the cheek but i didnt turn my cheek. hahah and then we kissed on the lips for the first time .. i think i got a smirk on my face that whole night.. and it was in the fourth floor of our building near the elevator :D.. hah

-we would go to st. catherines to chill just because both of us didn't want to go home .. with monique and sergio obviously.. and then play ball ..

-our first fight was when you lied down on sergio and everyone like john pableo and jerico were there saying .. "yo look at arianne.." then you told me you felt sick thats why you were lying down on him and i wasnt there for you.. :( sorry.

-making "The Light" by Common our "theme song".. maybe because i wanted to be different and most of the lyrics apply to us .. specially the chorus :D..

-talking on the phone til late at night and pretty much just hear your voice slowly get softer tells me that you are tired..

-our "kiss me booboo" calls and when you don't hear my kiss .. you would say louder .. (maybe because i would be in public.. i love you but its humiliating.. LOOOL)

-our love triangle including sergio.. i kinda laugh about it now.. but dang .. i took a swing at him but he was soo tall so i didn't reach him.. meh.. but i miss the guy.

-you moving and me crying.. hahaha stupid me didn't know where erin mills area was.. hahah .. i thought it was the end of the world.. but then yeah.. you guys moving was like "dang.. will i ever see her again? " since also, you were moving to holy name.. yup i cried like a baby

-us chilling at erin mills almost everyday.. god i loved erin mills.. it was our getaway..

-me chilling at your work and pretty much knowing every single coworker you have. i think im one of the few people that doesnt work there yet got to sit on your managers chair and pretty much saw tons of figurines..

-my first gift to you was a build-a-bear.. gasper and i went to get you the love bug bear .. soo prety much did the whole wish thing and all that jazz... hahaha .. i felt gay but it was worth the gayness..

-my dad getting furious when he found out how much it was ..(well .. let's just say it was my two week allowance)

-you getting that heart necklace with a key to fill in the gap ..which says "he who has the key to my heart" ... maybe it's wrong but i remember it along those lines.. well obv. i hav the key.. which rusted.. :(

-bus 44 ... the bus who took me from martin's to mississauga rd. and credit view??.. which then i would walk to see you as soon as possible.. and would see your school bus and everyone would be like .. and i know they tell you .. "i saw darrel" or "look its darrel" .. :D

-going to bus 49 to drop you off and cuddling and kissing and hugging... (the bus that takes soo long and comes very few times)

-me influencing your taste in music.. you went from ja rule to the likes of common, mos def, kanye, talib, etc. .. pretty much from bad to great)

-you coming to martin's every terry fox run.. hahaha ..not to run but to see me... and other people too of course.

-you writing me letters.. (random, sweet, emo, .. meh ive read em all :D.. and i hav boxes to prove it)

-me getting you that heart necklace which you wore everyday from claire's .. (no job = low class jewelries, but its the thought that counts)

-everyone calling me kiwi, booboo, and other nicknames i forgot that you have used to call me

-you working at carlton card's made me have more cards.. (b-day, random, xmas, valentines day.. you name it.. white out the writing and i can sell them again.. and be rich.. hahaha..)

-you putting "freshly licked" or "licked with love" on every envelope ... hahah!!

-first time going to your house was sick..you and your brother "picked me up" from the bus stop.. i smiled right there and then after being nervous that i was going to be lost.. and then we would sneak in while your mom sleeps and leave before your dad comes.. we're good!! well after that, it was like that everytime i would come over.

-playing ball because you wanted to see my skills.. and biking to 7/11 and buy food and other shit.

-making fun of your biking skills because it will always look like your going to get hit by a car or you're going to fall flat on your face ...

-us watching filipino movies and making fun of you and yell "KILIG!!!!" .. haha

-going to wonderland .. and swimming and getting dark.. and just having fun with just each other .. and yea pretty much wanting to ride everything .. but you pussied out in every rollercoaster soo .. we just went swimming .. (which scared me because you would bring me to the deep side eventhough i can't swim.. ) and you getting mad at me because i would kinda bring you down making you swallow water ..

-wondergrad was sick.. that night was amazing .. (the swing when me n joel thought we were going to fall, patrick star LOL, it was too late soo no funnel cakes.. but highlight of the night was YOU)

-us deciding to go to george brown together .. doing all that necessary stuff that summer and was just happy because i made my schedule around yours which means more time with each other :D..

-our toronto missions like finding out shops, good restaurants, Eaton Centre, walking at night just you and me, our stussy bags and american apparels.. :D .. and just looking at how beautiful Toronto is at night :D...

-me always forcing you to take the TTC.. just so that i can spend more time with you.. haha.. which will annoy you because you hate the TTC and you like the comfy seats of a GO bus/train LOL.. and you live soo far ..

-teaching me how to ride the GO.. i am now addicted and haven't seen a subway train for the longest time .. beside, i just realized that i spend the same amount of money when i can be at union faster and comfortable .. :D.. and no sketchy/dirty people..

-pigging out at every restaurant possible .. preferably Jack Astor's, Pickle Barrel, Moxie's.. and fast food restaurants.. Popeye's, McDonald's, Burger King, ManchuWok, etc. lol .. it was a mission to make you fat..

-knowing your preferred McDonald's meal, 6 piece nugget combo with fries and a root beer no ice (or sometimes when you feel a little healthy Fruitopia).. with two packets of mayo for the fries and honey sauce for your nuggets.. ewww dirty.. you gotta cut that out btw. :D

-us naming our future son Isaiah LOL .. and adding Anthony to it?.. Isaiah Anthony???.. LOL

-watching every Harry Potter movie with you.. (don't break this pls. thanks :D).. were going this year?.. is it?? .. not sure but it was definitely not last year.

-you picking out my glasses .. :D..

-pretty much being part your family by being invited to anywhere because it was your birthday, it was your graduation, or it was just a random night.. well not that much but yea i loved it..

-always being there for me through my problems.. my friend, my lover, my sister, my mother, my inspiration and i know that this is just another hump .. you're my everything .. I MISS YOU!!

-i love tita love, for loving me for you because she just knows how much i love you DOOOOOOBIE!! (sp?), your mom and dad, your mom for taking care of me everytime i'm over at your house and treating me like another son and your dad who deep inside knows how much i love his daughter and accepted me slowly but i still felt it and would drive to bring me home safe .. muahahahaah.. and argyle.. who i met when he was in grade 5 or 6 and because he would play ball with me when someone can't shoot the ball for shit ;) .. and just everything he did for us..

-well pretty much the days i spent with you.. and one day we will be better and we will do it the right way.. and i can't wait for that time eventhough you kinda gave up on me already.. i know it's a matter of time and situation .. have fun now but i know i still got you .. noone can ever make you feel loved as much as i loved you NOONE!! .. and trust me, i will be better and more matured and so will you .. and we will be 100x better :D.. i cannot wait!

whoa that was long... i'm going to think of more later.. im tired and hungry..

I WUFF YOU!! ;)

to the girl that knows me best.. (after my mom and my sisters of course) .. take care always.. i am here when you need me .. always and foreverrr .. <3

my heart goes out to you ms. finding foreverrr.. i love you with all my heart!!..