who the fuck am i? i'm being treated like all the other guys you hid from me.. grow the fuck up.. you can't do this because i told him i did this eventhough i did that.. sometimes i wonder what else you hid from me.. well whatever .. if you're just going to treat me like that .. then don't ask me for friendship... don't ever text me, don't ever call me or don't ever talk to me on msn.. you have your own life now.. what are you going to do, treat the same guy with all this bullshit.. i'm going to do you a favour and never talk to you ever again, don't ever check up on me because who cares really.. do you or you just say that to know if i'm still alive.. after 5 years i deserve that treatment??.. well, screw you and your goddamn friendship i never really wanted to settle for less... it seems like i just help you move on.. so much sacrifices even when we are not together., sacrifice my own emotional well being for you, always that guy to always cater to that girl, always be there for her because you love her that much but nah.. you can only do so much but like you said you gotta be selfish.. whatever .. you're whatever now.. you're just an ex now and it will just stay like that.. if i survived now, i can survive in the future.. fuck my promise of always being there because clearly you stepped out of my life.. you're the one who gave up on me and never guided me through that ordeal because after we've been thru ,you just got sick of me.. just like what q-tip said.. "at the end of it all it was you.."
on another note: i love my new nike zoom kobe 4.. and my new nike free everyday.. yes, imma run me some serious K's and play some serious ball .. fucking a... and for you, use your painting stuff.. you bought them for a reason... and that is to get in touch with your old artistic self.. get on that .. and i just proved that i still seem to care no matter what .. oh well.. its just me..
