Sunday, March 22, 2009

i'm not loving you, the way i wanted to..

thank you for everything!!

but man, you gotta stop calling me. it ain't cool. i know you called me once but man, it is not going to work. seriously, you ain't helping me. if you want to be my friend, then leave me alone. i can do this. i don't want to hear your voice, read any message you might send me later, even see you. you only stay friends when you want to get back together. clearly you don't and i'm starting to feel .. well if she's ready to let go then i gotta let go too. i've given up the idea of getting back together. it takes two to tango. i fucked up but it doesn't mean i should hurt myself even more. friends should be *platonic* but everytime i see you, all i do is steal kisses, hugs, stare in your eyes, and relive the past. that's not good and i want it to stop. some guy might have disrespected me but i believe in karma. what goes around comes around. you don't prey on girls and wait for them when they are vulnerable. probably said, "ohh you can do better blah, blah, blah" to replace his ugly ass ex-girlfriend. pull that "nice guy" persona. the fool ain't even a nice guy because if he was, he would have respect. it's a deed of the devil. you don't do that ever. if i can beat this guy up i will. you know who you are, you son of a bitch. there's a reason you never looked me in the eyes nor even acknowledge me. you're a pussy BRAH! but then again, it will not take me to my destination. i am going to be the mature one and leave you two alone. if you want to fall in love with someone else then go ahead. you can picture yourself with someone else anyways so i guess we are now history. i am not going to be your friend though. you're the one who backstabbed me because you knew all along. we were amazing but we lost the spark. and it was your choice. take care and besides, you're happy now.





AND BODY SOO SORE! CAN'T-LIFT-ARM!! DAMN WORKOUT.. NO PAIN, NO GAIN THOUGH!